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What’s going on?!? This isn’t the south! this is California. We’re supposed to be complaining about how hot it is, not how humid it’s getting!

I love technology. My cousins and I are going to be able to make calls and send text messages without having to worry about extra charges. Cami, one of my cousins, has this app, called Viber, that is similar to Google talk but waay better. :) It lets you send text messages and make international calls at no charge. My cousin said it works well and it’s super easy to use. So I’ve download it. 

I must say, it felt good talking to them. In a way , it took away the pain. Seeing my cousins laugh and smile and be happy for a brief moment gave me a piece of mind. In a way,it made me realize that my Auntie is not gone but is taking a long trip abroad. I know, this might not be the best way of dealing with the whole situation but its making the pain more bearable.

Let’s hope tomorrow will be less of a blur and more like a normal day.

that my auntie has passed away. She was only 53 years old. Cancer had nothing on her. As a matter of fact, she was kicking it’s ass. She was strong and positive. She was my aunt, my godmother, my second mother. How could this happened?! 

It appears that on Tuesday around 7 am, she woke up to some discomfort. She complained to my cousin and laid down. Next thing my cousins knew, my aunt wasn’t responding. In less than an hour, she was pronounced dead. According to her doctor, some sort of clog formed and blocked her pulmonary track. This sent her into some sort of shock. When the paramedics reached her, they couldn’t do anything for her. Not because it was too late but because of what had happened. Five months ago, she underwent surgery to remove a cancerous mass on her lung. When the surgeons opened her they realized that the mass had eradicated to her entire left lung and some other organs. So, they decided to remove her entire left lung to prevent the cancer from spreading any more. This prevented my aunt from getting help from the paramedics. She only had one lung so there was nothing they could have done for her. She joined the angels in heaven after saying goodbye to my cousins and uncle.

I’m still in shock/denial. I’ve been crying and drifting on and off throughout the day. My chest hurts and so do my eyes. Not to mention that my heart literally aches. I’m shaky and unfocused. But what hurts the most is that I won’t be able to travel to be with my cousins, uncle and grandma. That’s what killing me the most. Not being able to reach out and hug them and comfort them and help them in anyway possible but because of a fucking piece of paper I can’t be there.Skyping and talking on the phone with them, is not the same has being in person.

Everyone at home is hurting some way or another. My mom is in denial. She talks as if my auntie was still with us. She’s been retelling stories throughout the day. While my dad hasn’t shown any emotions. He’s being the rock(or so I think he is) though there is a high probability that he’s in shock too. Him and my auntie were super close. Me on the other hand, as I mention, I’ve been emotional all day. I missed school and probably will miss school again tomorrow. I can’t focus or think straight. Everything reminds me of her. Any little thing makes me cry and I keep hearing her voice.

My family in Chile is also in shock. They didn’t know that my auntie was fighting cancer. The only person that knew was my uncle (my dad’s and auntie’s brother). Though, I’m somewhat annoyed at him. He has the ability to go to Spain but he won’t. What type of brother is that?! I swear, when my mom told me I wanted to slap the heck out of him! My uncle and cousins need all the help that they can get. Plus they are alone in Spain.And, the only person close enough to him(which is his brother) lives 15 hours away from him. So who is going to help him take care of my grandma, who has Alzheimer? or cook for my 13th year old cousin? or help my girl cousins? or just be there for emotional support? 

Andie(my uncle) has to continue working to support my cousins and grandma. Plus the State is not covering my aunt’s crematorium (my parents are pitching in to help out) plus they all have to eat and pay bills! ugh, how much I wish I could be there.

I’m at the point of desperation…close enough to jump on a plane to be with them.

I spent my entire day off doing homework for my programing class. I cannot believe how much time I wasted. I swear, I’m starting to regret signing up for the class at Mission. My professor sucks. She CANNOT teach C++ to save her life. I seriously learned more on my own today, by looking at the solution manual, than by seating in her class for 5 hours straight.

How did she become a professor, anyways?! Just because you got a Master’s degree on something does not give you the ability or skills to teach at a college level. And yes, I’m annoyed. C++ isn’t too difficult (at least it seems like, after today’s Odyssey) but wasting my time when I could’ve been studying for my Calculus III exam should be illegal! I did not pay over $600 to have someone make a subject more confusing. I paid my tuition to have someone teach me not to have teach myself the subject.

And yes, I did mention how much I paid. Why?! because the system is screwing me over. Fees have once again gone up and I ain’t  seeing any improvements or benefits for what I’m paying. So you bet I’m gonna ask to get my money’s worth!

$300 million have been cut from higher education. California is 2/3 close from finally having a budget. I’m not sure I like the cuts and tax increase/extended that the Democrats have passed forward. Why would they charge a sale’s tax on internet purchases and NOT on oil companies? It just doesn’t make sense. The state would receive a lot more money if they were to tax the big oil companies instead of the people in the bottom.

It just doesn’t make sense to me. Education and public safety should always be a priority. People shouldn’t have to struggle to obtain basic aid.